*TRIGGER WARNING: This post includes some things that some people may find upsetting or a trigger.*
I absolutely love doing tags. They’re a great way to discover different bloggers and a dun way for you to get to know me a little more. I was tagged by the pretty incredible Gee, I highly recommend you go check her out, and have a look around her brand new shop section, Tulip and Moss.
HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU HAD YOUR FIRST CHILD?
I was 17 when I had Shaniah.
WHAT WAS THE HARDEST THING ABOUT BEING PREGNANT FOR 9 MONTHS?
I found out I was pregnant not long after leaving an incredibly shit “relationship”. A few days after finding out I was pregnant I passed what I assumed was tissue, after a long terrifying morning at the hospital having scans and showing them what I passed they were adamant that the pregnancy was over. I was young, terrified and in pain. I was told to take a pregnancy test in a few days to make sure that it was a negative and to my surprise it wasn’t.
I was completely confused and in a sea full of emotions when I was told that actually I was still pregnant. The next nine months were scary although these months were pretty textbook. They’re scary for everyone anyway.
Even though all that happened, I loved every minute of it and will happily go through it all again in the future.
CAN YOU THINK OF ANY GOOD THINGS YOU ENJOYED DURING THOSE 9 MONTHS?
The scans, oh boy the scans. For a few moments every month I was able to see the beautiful baby that I was growing, I was able to put a face to the child that I was bonding with and it was absolutely lush. Of course, shopping too! What women doesn’t love shopping? I absolutely loved weekend trips to Mothercare and Toys’R’us, test driving all the pushchairs was the equivalent of trying out all the bikes in Halfords when I was younger. Imagining my baby in all the tiny clothes was another exciting thing to do.
Laying in bed watching her wriggle and hiccup was another one of my favourite moments.
IN YOUR OPINION, WERE ALL THE THINGS YOU HEARD ABOUT CHILDBIRTH ACCURATE OR WAY OFF?
Haha, Way off. I am not sure if they were really way off or it was down to the fact that they gave me Pethadine something that I shouldn’t have been given due to my epilepsy and I ended up reacting with. I was hallucinating animals, heck, I even thought Boris Johnson was my husband. Shameful.
And the poo situation, something I worried about for 9 months straight was pooing during labour. I did it and I apologised to the lady after every push but in all honesty, it isn’t nearly as bad as what your mind lets you think leading up. You could even say it’s an ice-breaker!
WOULD YOU HAVE HANDLED CHILDBIRTH DIFFERENTLY IF YOU COULD RE-DO IT?
Honestly? No, not at all.
WHAT WOULD BE YOUR ADVICE FOR SOMEONE WHO IS ABOUT TO HAVE A BABY?
No single pregnancy is the same, a bit like people really. You can get thousands of people about how it was and they will all say different things but the one thing that you can guarantee they will all say is “Once you hold your baby you forget the pain” and that is true. I cannot for the life of me remember the pain during labour but the moment I clocked eyes on my brand new baby girl will stay with me forever.
WHAT HAS BEEN THE HARDEST THING ABOUT BEING A MUM?
The worry, oh my word, the worry. You worry about every little thing, well I do anyway. You long for them to be quieter but the moment that they do you worry that they are poorly. You bed them to sleep a little longer so you can catch up on them much needed z’s but as soon as they don’t wake up at the crack of dawn worry floods you that something isn’t right. Truth is kids are going to get poorly and doctors are going to feel like a second home but it they really are just being kids.
WHAT HAS BEEN THE MOST REWARDING THING ABOUT BEING A MUM?
Watching her grow. It is so lovely to see her grow into who she is today, watching her personality come to life.
WHAT HAS BEEN THE MOST SURPRISING THING THAT YOU DISCOVERED ABOUT BEING A MUM?
How exhausting parenting can be. Everyone tells you of the early morning but they don’t tell you just how early those mornings can be and also how much worrying you’ll do.
WHAT IS THE BEST MEMORY YOU HAVE INVOLVING YOUR CHILD?
This is a hard one. Every single day spent with her adds to the bank of beautiful memories, but if it has to be one thing than it would have to be taking her home from the hospital. It was both exciting and scary. Exciting because she is all mine but scary because I am out of the safety of the hospital.
WHAT IS THE MOST EXCITING MILESTONE?
It’s got to be talking hasn’t it? When the little babbles turn into “proper” words. It’s exciting because you don’t have a clue what the next word that comes out of their mouth is going to be. Scary but oh so exciting. Shaniah has a habit of picking up words which she probably shouldn’t and using them in moments where she definitely shouldn’t. Although she is like a ticking time bomb it sure as hell is hilarious.
WHAT IS THE WORST THING YOUR CHILD HAS DONE?
Like I explained above using inappropriate words in times where she really, really shouldn’t is one of the worst things I think she has done. She has put us in some right sticky situations at times, especially when she says words which are so bad yet so plain. Why do children do that?
WHAT HABIT DID YOU WISH YOUR CHILD DIDN’T HAVE?
Getting naked. I don’t know where she got that from but she does it every single day. She currently has a habit of going to public bathrooms and refusing to put her pants back on. You can often find her hanging around in the nude.
WHAT HABIT OF THEIRS MAKE YOU MOST PROUD?
I’m not sure if it’s a habit but how polite and friendly she is. She will speak to anyone and everyone and with me being as shy as a mouse it’s extremely welcomed.
DO YOU SHARE ANY SIMILARITIES WITH YOUR CHILD? (BOTH PHYSICAL & PERSONALITY)
Physically Shaniah and I are both very short, I know she is only 4 but I will take that as a similarity none the less right? Our eye colours are also very similar however I do believe that her eyes are a little brighter than my own. Personality wise I don’t actually think we are that similar.
WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE YOUR CHILD TO BE IN 10 YEARS?
In 10 years Shaniah will be 14 (!) so just about to prepare for her GCSE’s. I would like to think that she is knuckling down and choosing the subjects that she enjoys the most while not taking it too seriously. I was forever studying and getting upset with myself and my results even though I had tried my hardest. I hope that Shaniah takes a more fun approach to learning and that she doesn’t get so focused on results.
IS THERE SOMETHING THAT HAVING A CHILD HAS TAUGHT YOU?
Love. Love like no other. I thought I knew what love was but once I became a mother I was introduced to a brand new kind of love, a love that has strength beyond anything I could have ever imagined.
DID YOU IMAGINE BECOMING A MUM AT THE AGE YOU BECAME A MUM
Not at all. I don’t think anyone actually sets out to become a young mum. I had visions of me being a Crime Scene Investigator. Although that didn’t end up to be the path of my life I wouldn’t change it for the world. Shaniah has shown me love like no other and if anything given me a new meaning to life.
DESCRIBE YOUR CHILD IN ONE SENTENCE?
It’s always fun to do the impossible.
HOW HAVE YOU CHANGED AS A PERSON SINCE BECOMING A MUM?
I think I have become more confident. That’s the thing with children. You see them with buckets full of confidence going about their day without a care what other people think and then you just end up taking a leaf out of their book and being the same. You can learn a lot from youngsters, how to be a better person, how to go through life, etc.