Firstly, I cannot believe that you are five years old. It only seems like yesterday you were born a few days late and it felt as though you were just never going to come. Boy when you did decide to come you made labour one of the funniest experiences. Labour was so quick I often wonder if you were as excited to see the world, as those inside it were excited to see you.
I wanted to take this opportunity to write you a letter, I know you won’t understand it for a few years but I worry, as mothers do.
I want to tell you from my own experiences and setbacks that not everything you pass on your path to adulthood is going to be a happy experience. Not everyone that you will meet is going to accept you, I know they should but such is life. Sometimes you will learn this the hard way, sometimes you may find not only your trust but your heart broken. You will become more aware of who you let into your little circle. As you grow older, you will find people will say things, things that are hurtful, things that will make you feel as though you are not good enough, you may even wonder if you need to change to fit in. Know this, You are good enough and more still you need not change for anyone. You are you, and that is your superpower. As you progress into your teen years these people will try to lead you into making bad choices, to rebel against all that we have taught you, and you know what? You will make some mistakes.
I wish that I could prevent others from being nasty to you, from making you feel as though you aren’t valued in society. All I can promise you is that through it all I will be here with open arms, to try and put right the wrong that you will feel.
And through it all, you will learn how to handle adversity, you will strive that bit more to achieve your biggest goals. You will learn to stand loud and proud and speak out for what you believe in, not what others want you to. Eventually, you will be able to blank out the nasty people in society. It will make you stronger as a person and believe it or not, you will also learn to love and appreciate yourself more. I know in the moment it won’t feel like it, you are going to feel lonely, you are going to feel emotions that not even the most literate of people could explain, but it will pass. It really will pass.
Friendships they will come and go, moments like that will make you feel hollow but if there’s one thing that I have learnt through it all, It is to keep family and true friends close, but please don’t take them for granted. Return every favour whether they are big or small. Those that don’t have your best interests at heart? sack them off, for a happy life isn’t about the size of your contacts list but by how much love that they all equal to.
Remember more than anything that your family love you and to us you are as perfect as perfect can be.
I am so excited to continue to watch you grow. To not only be beside you when you flourish but to also be behind you when you struggle. I often wonder what you may be when you grow, at the moment you believe you may be a singer or a footballer, sometimes even both! Whatever you choose to be, know that we are proud.
I will love you until the earth crusts over.
Happy 5th birthday sweetheart.